Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Motivation....or Lack There Of!

When you've suffered a loss of pregnancy/child, no matter the amount of children you've already been blessed with, complaining about your current pregnancy or children just isn't one of those things you feel okay about doing. And I certainly am trying not to. I nested the first seven months of my pregnancy and, this past week, I'm running at a snails pace, it seems! This scorching dry Southern heat isn't doing me any favors, either! Ha!

Today I hit 29 weeks! I'm so thrilled about that! My son will be here in an estimated eleven weeks, folks! My heart couldn't be more prepared for his arrival! My mind and body, however, feel like snoozing all day...and because I absolutely cannot do that, I'm beginning to feel a wee bit disconnected from my world. I am starting to feel like I'm just going through the motions of being a wife, mother, and servant to the Lord. I don't feel depressed, by any means. Just slap wore out...all the time! Zzzz. I understand that it's a natural part of pregnancy. I'm in my third trimester. I'm much larger (he's much larger for that matter), and I simply have less energy. Naturally, I need more sleep but sleep is quite uncomfortable in this final trimester. That's just life! My Christian heart screams out praises to our Father for His sweet blessings, while my human nature attempts to deal without complaint. I realize that I put a tremendous amount of pressure on myself to prove my gratitude for His blessings. I'm not sure why His compassion and understanding is so hard for me to grasp, when it comes to myself. Praying that as I grow in my relationship with Him, I come to terms with my worthiness of His perfect love.

This is the last week of the babes Summer break, and I am attempting to make it a great week for them. We are planning on taking them to the beach tomorrow afternoon. The older babes have been back and forth, all Summer. Either from spending time with their friends, or with their dad. I'm looking forward to a nice little sun-shiny break at the beach with all my little ones, as well as the big guy.

These are just a few photos that have made me happy this week!

My nephew Wesley with Lindsey, and Ella. Just as I was going to snap the picture, Wesley threw his leg into the air and yelled, "Let's do a funny one!". He's always good for a silly picture!
My blue eyed cutie pies! Ella ADORES her "Bubby".
Gabriel took this one. "Mama, look at the HUGE butterfly I found outside for you!".
Gabriel LOVES to draw, build, and create! These are two of his little creations, today. Perry the Platypus to the left is made out of a toilet paper roll, and paper. The one on the right is made out of legos.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Romans 15:13

Relishing in His goodness...

2 comments:

Rightthinker said...

I am praying for you through your challenges in the last trimester!

Your kids are going to have a great last week, don't you worry. They will because they love you!

Much love, and I can't wait to see your new babe.

Christy said...

Love you oodles! Thanks for the sweet comment. You always know how to lift a gals spirits!